Today is a good day. It is Friday and the end of the month, which as a “nerdy calendar type of gal” makes me happy. February has been a wild journey for me as we hosted the Catch on Fire Leadership conference at the start of the month. I think I have finally come back to settle in with myself. Adrenaline is a doozy and it kept me going on full throttle for weeks.
I am on my Day #5 of my 40 days of prayer in the Draw the Circle book by Mark Batterson. I am writing down my prayers and blogging along the way.
This month has been full of lessons in letting go and trusting the process. God is my provider. I am not supposed to try to fix things, control things, rearrange things or manipulate things. But my tendency is to go back to this as my default setting.
This week I launched the Christian Women’s Leadership Institute, shared my video testimonial about my recovery journey and set some boundaries in relationships in my personal life.
God is teaching me daily that He knows best. He prunes for me. Often times I am not wise enough or strong enough to do the kind of pruning He does. There are seasons for everything. I am in a season of trust, healing, and surrender. The miracle of this is that I am also in a season of expansion, leaping, and learning to love myself unconditionally. What a wild adventure!
Part of this is trusting that God will take care of me and I don’t have to work all the time. That He wants me to take time off. I was sharing about this in a private group today and jokingly said that being an entrepreneur was not like “doing heart surgery” and that we can take a day off. Then I realized that we are doing heart surgery. My taking a day off and spending time with me, is healing my heart. It is just what the doctor ordered. I trust Him completely. He is my BOSS.